So it's been a while since I have written. I knew I wouldn't write daily; I just didn't think it would be months in between my posts. Better late than never.
A few things have happened in the last couple months. Let's see...
Family: All is well. I live 3 hours away from my family. We are close, and I don't see them as often as I'd like. I have a very handsome 5 year old nephew and a beautiful 6.5 month old niece. There is also another niece/nephew on the way! I say it like that because we don't know what the sex is yet. We will find out next week though!
Work: Oh work. What to say about it? Some days are great, some are just horrible. Maybe a month ago, I had one of those horrible days. All in all, long story short, my character was questioned. I was quite angry initially, but then I was hurt. More hurt than anything. Even now, I feel hurt by the situation. But what can you do? I still have bills to pay. I still have animals to feed. I still have to go to work. I have put it behind me, but I have not forgotten. If you know me, you know I don't forget things like this.
Fun: Mom & I went to NYC in April! We left on Thursday April 12 and returned on Monday April 16. We had a blast! I think I will do more posts about that trip so this one isn't so long. Maybe a post for each day. Mom had never been to NY and I'm glad that I planned it well enough that she wants to go back! I won't spoil it all here.
Personal: "I am at a point where I'm ready to settle down, just not ready to settle." I saw this recently and it is so true. I've been struggling with this for a while now. I am honestly tired of being alone. No, I do not need a guy to be happy. No, I do not need a guy to support me. I am just lonely. Plain and simple.
People all around me are in relationships, getting married, having children. I'm not saying I want all of that, well, not all of it right now, but eventually. You will tell me, 'I didn't meet [enter significant other here] until I was [enter age older than mine]. It will happen when you least expect it'. Yada yada yada. Is it so wrong that I would rather meet someone sooner than later? I don't think so. I can't force it. I know that. I won't. And I refuse to settle so I'm not going to jump into a relationship with the first guy that comes along. I just get a little disappointed sometimes that things have not worked out for me, yet.
I want someone to share my day with. I want someone to share their day with me. Well, there's a lot I want and I don't feel I need to share it here. Don't get me wrong, I'm not itching to get married tomorrow, but a date now and then would be nice. Someone to talk to, hang out with. :) I will quit now, because I know I'm starting to sound pathetic and desperate. I am neither. I would just like to have a special someone in my life. I think everyone would like that.
Animals: My three kiddos are doing great. Penny took a little vacation of her own when mom & I went to NYC. She rode to Raleigh with me and stayed with her great-grandparents! :) Granny & Granddad love that cat so much! And she loves being at their house just as much. She has special food and I separate her from Blaze & Mini to eat, so it was very helpful to have her at their house by herself. Also, Blaze couldn't chase her there. She loved it. The minute I walked into their house to get her to bring her home she started crying and ran from me. She knew she had to leave and didn't want to go at all! I offered Penny to my grandparents. It would be entertaining for them and she would be so much happier. But they won't do it. They are good with short visits for now.
Blaze & Mini are good. Mini is warming up to me more and more. She is now starting to get jealous of the attention Blaze demands. She will jump on me more and want to be rubbed. Blaze has his routines down that we do daily. When I open my bedroom door in the morning to let Penny out of there, Blaze comes in and jumps on the bed. I get back in bed and we cuddle for a few minutes. When I get in the shower, he gets between the curtain and curtain liner and cries until I get out. Sometimes he'll try to bite my leg through the liner. Then when I'm done he has to raise up on me and rub on me to make sure I'm still there. I guess he thinks the water is going to get me. When I get home (from anywhere) he cries until I sit on the couch. He'll then jump on my lap and sit there for a good 5 minutes. It's routine, but I wouldn't have it any other way.
